I’ve been trying to get this post up on the blog for a month now, I just haven’t had the words to truly express my emotions. I’m wanting to soothe my heart a little, work out how I landed myself here. How did I land here? What went wrong? I’m grieving the loss of one I once loved. How do people lose a parent, a best friend, a sibling? How does death work to rob us?
How should I present myself to the world? Am I a tom-boy? Am I artsy-fartsy enough to pull off blue braids? Can I rock a waist-length weave? Should I leave the house au-naturale with no make-up? Am I more like so and so who loves to wear lots of accessories and dress to impress or is my style more simple and understated?
What a day it's been! I'm cozied up on my white leather couch and feeling rather swamped in my thoughts. I've spent the past half hour journalling. I'm looking back over the past few months at what I've done, what I've learnt, what's been difficult and what I'm still going through.
I'll tell you this: I'm a little nervous about this post. Look at that title. I mean, it's grandiose. It's ambitious. I'm a little nervous. I've been putting this post off for a while now. I got home at about 5.45PM. I took a nap, showered. It's 8.42PM now. I've been thinking about writing on this topic for the past two days. I've been listening to my heart - really thinking hard about where I'd like to go with this one.
I'm actually a little puzzled about what spin to take with this blog post. Being in my 20's is proving to be a whole new ball game. I remember being told when I was a pre-teen that my teenage years would be the most challenging of my life. Well, scratch that!
I hope you're smiling, soaking in some sunshine, beaming, slaying and plain goddessing wherever you're reading this from! I'm doing well. April has been off to one interesting start my friend, so I've decided to take the next 21 days off! Now trust me, this is not a decision I've made lightly.
Thanks for coming over to the blog to read this. I've had this post on my mind for a while now. I've been listening to you in your comments and direct messages on Instagram and in the private messages you send me via email and on Facebook. I love hearing from you and I also know some of us are seeking sunshine and respite.
I sure do hope you've had a most productive week! I sure have! I was going through some of my old pictures today and I couldn't help but think to myself "my oh my, how times (and indeed, I myself) have changed!" Some of what I thought, at 16, were my fundamental beliefs have changed.
Being a 20-something right out of the parent’s nest is no joke! I’m really hoping my 30’s get less confusing, because at 25, I’ve had to wing some (seemingly) really big questions!! I’ve been asking myself lately what really are life’s biggest questions on finding love and building a career.
What a wonderful day of the year to be alive!! I'm sitting here with a big bright smile on my face. And I'm just soaking it all in..! All the love and sunshine we've shared over the past one year! Yep! You guessed right, I began Craving Yellow exactly one year ago!
What a wonderful week it's been on the blog! I've truly loved hanging out with you and hearing what you've been upto this year! (For day 1, click here; day 2, here; and day 3, here.)Thanks for taking the time to respond, and to respond in length! We've all been on such different paths this year! We've all learned a lot, grown that little bit wiser and truly soaked in all of life. :-)
Day 3 of our blog hangout is here!! Yippee! Thanks for all the wonderful responses in the previous posts! In case you missed day 1, click here. If you missed day 2, click here. I'm learning loads from you, thanks for sharing!! Seems like everyone's had a busy year full of ups and downs. But what we've learned through it all has only made us more resilient, more human
This blog hang out is a chance for us to connect, rejuvenate, share, laugh, reminisce, exchange, heal...whatever you like! I'm giving you all the freedom to use this space for your end year cleanse and reflection. Each new year that we are gifted is a chance to press the re-start button in any area of our lives.
I've been thinking about this blog project for a while, and truthfully, I've been a little afraid to put it on here. This project is very different from any I've worked on before, because this time around, I'm asking YOU, my reader(s) to share your experiences with me (and with fellow readers)!
I've typed and re-typed this introductory sentence 5 times now. You see, I really want to grab your attention. I want you to know that I am listening to you. Above all the fluff that us bloggers like to create. Fluff. As in. Perfectly pedicured toe nails, sunny beaches, laid hair, the best clothes...fantasies of perfect lives. All the fluff.
I hope you had a most restful weekend. I sure did! I spent most of it outside - the weather these past few days has been fantastic! I had lots of fun in the sun!! I picked out a few flowers to match my headband. Aren't flowers one of life's most exquisite treasures?
I started this blog, in many ways, because I wanted and needed to stay alive. When I moved to America for University, I was vibrant and abloom but just a couple of months in, I was breathless, anxious and longing to leave. I was tired of studying 7 days/week. I was tired of living in the "factory line" of education. The sole purpose of my existence was to study. My food was cooked for me, house cleaned, lawn mowed.
Today, I've chosen to write about a difficult topic that is close to my heart. I always say that as our hair grows, life goes on. In fact the latter happens with more frequency than the former. When I say 'life goes on' I'm talking about how we wake up on Monday mornings, chug a cup of coffee and run out the door. Some days are easier than others, but for many students studying away from home or abroad, depression and loneliness are very much a part of this everyday routine.