Thank you so much for stopping by the blog today. I hope you're keeping well? I'm doing well. I was a bit sick last night but I'm in recovery now. Yayy! You know how life goes! It's never a straight, narrow and well-lit path. It's always changing. Always.
July taught me many things. It was busy, it was hectic, it was fulfilling. As has been a tradition of mine on the blog for the past 19 months, I like to start every new month by looking back at what has been and setting some goals for the coming four weeks. It's like pressing the re-start button. I refresh "my page" and take time to look at what I've spent my time doing, what I've loved or loathed and what I could improve on.
Growth is a constant in my life. I welcome it and embrace it. It's intrinsically human to grow old or tired, bored or complacent. But so is it infallibly human to grow anew, start afresh, recharge, accept, forgive and release. Growth is as much about shedding off as is it is about bringing on board.
And so I've grown. I found Yellow in July 2016!
1. I made the decision to work smarter.
If you're a year out of college like I am, you know full well the hassle of settling into a 9 - 5 job. Heck there should be a compulsory course in the last semester of Uni to prepare each graduate for what lies ahead!
That said, working full time for the last 9 months has been AMAZING. I've worked with an AMAAAZING team of people - Australians are super warm - and I've grown just by being part of the team. Kerry, Bridg, Lauren, Cinz, Scotty, Chloe & Sally each have a special place in my heart.
They have been extremely welcoming of me in all my foreign-ness! Haha! The company I work for is one of Australia's most reputable and so I've also learned discipline, commitment, service, team work and excellence just by being an employee.
And as with everything else in life, nothing lasts forever. So as this new part-time season is now in full swing, I remain eternally grateful for the chapter of my life that has come to a close. I'm excited to have the opportunity to begin to work smarter and harder to establish some of my personal career goals!
2. I overcame a big hurdle in two close relationships.
Relationships are hard work. They drain us but ultimately, they build us. I tend to be a very focused and introverted person. Almost a workaholic and when I'm stressed out, I tend to cut people off. Yep, just being honest with you here. I'm learning however, that I have to take time to invest in the people in my life. And this has to be a deliberate process. Because life will always be busy. Life will always be cluttered. But carving out special times in which to love on my close family and friends should always be a priority. I'm learning to forgive them when they hurt me and to choose love even when I want to wallow in anger and self-pity.
3. I decluttered my wardrobe.
I gave away 3 bin-bags worth of clothing and shoes. Now that's a lot! I tend to have a lot of "stuff". I've owned over 90 pairs of shoes (mainly six inch heels I rarely wear) as well as kilos worth of jewellery, dresses and coats. I'm all about having a fully equipped closet, but mine was becoming an impediment to life! I had sooo much stuff! I threw a lot of it out and only kept what I actually wear often. I don't know about you, but once this was done, I felt like I had decluttered my brain too! Clarity and simplicity are my new values when it comes to my wardrobe choices! #GrownWoman-ing! :-)
And so a new month begins and I'm setting some new goals:
1. I'm taking life slower. I'm soaking in my existence.
Sitting behind a computer screen for 15 hours a day had become the norm for me. I love Social Media and I'm a huge enthusiast of online communities but I'm learning to take time off digital life to simply live. Walk outside. Feel the rain. Breathe clean, fresh air. Talk to people. Have meaningful conversations. Eat healthy and eat well. Be deliberate about each day that has been given to me. Look to making the lives of those around me and those who come into contact with me, more enriched. For me, the essence of life is really to leave an impact, small or big on those I have the honour to meet. It can be as simple as giving a compliment, encouraging or humouring. We truly live when we give.
2. I'm working hard to bring my goals into fruition.
Now I have some big goals in sight! Big big goals that scare me sometimes, but what's life without a seemingly insurmountable challenge? Boring, right? :-) I've been thinking about what my life goals are. What really matters the most to me? What tools do I have in my hands to achieve my goals be it personal, career-wise or even relationship-wise? Why do I spend all this time blogging and creating content? For me, it's all about my readers. It's all about you. I'm sincerely driven to continue to write a new story about us. Us who fit into the category of black, woman, African, educated, ambitious. Us. Our story fascinates me and I want to learn more and do more to add to our narrative. I have a few exciting projects coming up on the blog that are just that! You're going to love them and I can't wait to share!!
3. I'm spending more time on the phone and in person with the women in my life.
I spent 2 hours on the phone with Rachel the other day. Rachel and I go way back to when we moved in as neighbours at the age of 8. She is my real homegirl. I want to spend more time with the women in my life. My sister, my mom, my Aunt, my nieces, my new and old friends. There is so much depth in a woman's heart. I love spending time cozied up just chatting and giggling and sharing. I'm making more time for this, one of life's sweetest treasures.
4. I'm carving out special time for family.
It's easy to take family for granted. We expect them to be there. We feel bound to them by nature. After all, blood is thicker than water. But I'm learning that it's not enough to simply check in once in a blue moon but also to nurture my family connections. People are a gift from God. Family should be God's embrace here on earth. Family relationships are not always easy but I'd like my family to always be certain of my love and commitment to them.
5. I'm nurturing my creativity - a little mental restructuring is necessary.
I'm taking some time to "catch myself". I take time out to actually think about how I think and why I think the way I do. It's very easy to get into a way of thinking about life and about oneself that is unhealthy. It's easy to speak negativity into one's mind. To speak hurt and unforgiveness. To even speak worry and anxiety. I'll be the first to put my hand up and say I am 100% guilty of all the above. Sometimes I also talk myself up. I get proud. I say to myself after all, I have over 100k followers across my channels. It's easy for the numbers and the likes to get to my head. Its easy to measure myself with these numbers and make them define me and how I relate to others and even to myself. But I'd like to learn more humility. More grace. I'd like to remember why I started out because, after all, this blog, this Craving Yellow blog, is all about a heart to heart. Between you and I. Let my drive always be towards service.
And so I'm grateful, that you've read this post. That you've continued to read this blog, continued to share your thoughts with me in the comments section. Thank you, really. What an adventure this is turning out to be!
Alright, I'm going to pen off now. I'm off to buy some groceries for dinner tonight as well as some supplies for a video I'm shooting this evening.
As always, I'm sending you lots of love and sunshine!